A bit unfocused in Chinese class today. The ti...

A bit unfocused in Chinese class today. The ting li teacher started to grate on me. Didn't understand how I was pronouncing the sentence wrong. People usually say I have such good pronunciation. Though I know it could still improve. Learned some things to improve from these classes. I have a sense of urgency right now to keep progressing with everything. A little lack of patience. As if I wish I could do all the work right now, without the restriction of time. I feel a bit groady, wish I'd time to take a shower before class this morning. And a bit fuzzy-minded, as if I still haven't woken up completely yet. I will try to go to bed early tonight and get up early to practice Taiji on the quad before class tomorrow, because I will have Taiji class tonight and so it will be an ideal time start this routine, while Chen Shifu's instruction is fresh. I have felt a new wave of passion for 王楠, her body and flesh and our future life together. Dreamt with her last Saturday night, in-between bouts of "love-making", of a future life together in California. For a few years and then back to China for who knows how long.